day 1

So I have decided to start this blog as a journey to finding myself. Many of us in life are still searching for that career, life path, goal that will make us happy. My mother says that as human beings we are never satisified with life, that is why we have faith in God. Well no offense to my mother or God, but I am not sure that seeking his love is where I am headed. I do believe in God and that he/she has something to do with our life journey, but I do not feel that praying is going to just illuminate my path to ultimate happiness. I believe we are meant to seek it out for ourselves keeping in mind of the teachings of being a good person and living life as if it is a gift. So moving on from that my journey really began five years ago when I decided to go to New York for school, this meant a 1,200 mile move from Arkansas. Yes that is right my loley self moved to NY for four years of college not knowing anyone. I do not know what destines me to do these type of moves for I am a very social individual who thrives off of human interaction. Well...I do know why I moved, everyone loves there family, but at that time my family was just a little too much to handle. Now things are better and have settled, but life was rampid for a while. That story is for another blogging day. So back to the move, one thing I have realized with college is that it is a time to grow and mature, but that doesn't mean you will figure out what truly makes you tick. Are we really supposed to know by age 21-22 exactly who we are and what we want out of life? NO definitely not! One thing I have figured out about myself is that I really do not know who I am and what makes me me. So four years through college I graduated with bachelors in International Management. Yay! I got a piece of paper for $120K! Now where does that leave me... through my years at college, instead of letting my likes lead me through degrees I allowed money or the ability to make money lead me. My end goal was not to be happy, but to make enough money to support myself. I know all you parents out there are going yes! However, this just in,  money makes the world go round, but sure as hell doesn't buy your happiness! 'shocking,' "I know."
Through this long introduction my point of this Blog is to document my journey of finding myself in hopes that I will find myself and if anyone reads it it will help them on their journey.Until next time...